I can't get a hold of my best friend because she is mad at me for my MOTHER saying I couldn't go to the beach. I'm sorry Jess.. but really i need to talk to her and shes mad at me, it is not my fault. I'm so annoyed because i called an old fling to chill and he tells me he has to talk to me, and then his lame ass friends start to talk shit, and i can hear, wtf?  Really come on what grade are we in people.

I think today was just an overly full day:
Swim practice from 9:30 to noon.
Chores
Then take my sister to her school orientation, which she immediately started to ignore me and then asked me to leave after she had me come. (It's all very frustrating)
Then drive here and there.
And then pick my sister up from the movies.

I am feeling super under appreciated right now. I do a lot for my sister and she just acts as if it's never enough. I love her and I try to have a sister relationship with her and she doesn't want it. I don't really know what to do. I'm sure the simple solution is to leave her alone, but it's really hard. She constantly is embarrassing me, and just does not care. It's not only humiliating but also extremely hurtful. Which she also finds annoying she thinks that I shouldn't be so "touchy". I just don't think she realizes that she is being REALLY mean. Any advice..?
I know it's her age, it just doesn't seem that i was that rude when i was younger. It's not all her fault, I'm mean to her as well about things, but I go back and apologize.. Age issue again. 

An old friends has started to text me again, which is good. I really missed him. We have some history and I think I will always have feelings for him; his current girlfriend (the one he chose instead of me) is really great: sweet, pretty, and really nice. He tells me he still has feelings for me but what can he do. I feel bad talking to him about it because this girl he's dating is really nice, however the topic seems to creep back up on a frequent basis.  I want to be friend because he is someone I want in my life. I really don't know. 

Last night was pretty interesting. I really am delighted i got the chance to spend some time with a friend i haven't seen in awhile and one leaving for camp today.. Going on extended walks and taking the time to lie in the road and look up, watching the stars was exactly what I needed.  Ha. Leanna I love you, and Megan I am thrilled with our special mustaches. 

When you come back baby it's on--chill. Miss you already, love you tons.. Can't wait to send that "homemade" postcard. haha. Have fun, and I will take care of your long board. Promise. Holler.